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| just finished watching the last episode of an old tv show called roswell... it was good. 3 seasons w/in a week, you get drawn in. But the ending left me happy.. and thinking. Thinking will i be able to say that, no matter what else happens, no matter what all craziness goes on, it was a good run. Thinking that i may be losing a lot, but i have lived enough, and have enough going with me, that its all going to be alright? Thinking that happily ever after doesnt always turn out quite the way we think it should, but in the end maybe its better that way.
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| I always get nostalgic late at night, and usualy end up on here when i get that way. Its strange how much everything can change and yet still be exactly the same. Wars, famine, drought, countries rising and falling.. Birth, death, growth, destruction... its always been that way. We act like its something different and new, but its not. Change is a constant, but the irony is that it always seems to lead to the same places. Cycles and climaxes. Maybe Shakespeare was right, and the world is just a large theater and we are all actors, running the same acts with different faces and different props.
Then again, maybe not. Maybe each new sunrise brings light upon a new world, completely reworked, different from the one that it left. Maybe.
Now off to stare at the stars for the few hours till the sun comes back.
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| Wow, i haven't used this thing in forever. It is a useful place to write out some thoughts, though.
Right now, im in Keystone, CO. It is AMAZING. Yes, capital letters and all. Utterly, astonishingly, breathtaking beauty, all created by God. The stars are crystal clear, and the world is white. Well, there is green now, but still a lot of white.
There has also been some awesome God stuff going on right now.
Revelation #1. Know what you are praying. As in stop using big somewhat pointless words, stop saying things and asking for them without actually realizing what you are saying/asking.
#2. This is somewhat related to the first one. We always ask for fire, but do we actualy realize what that entails? Fire burns. It blackens the flesh, peals it from the bone, and hurts like.. well, fire. Fire isnt fun, it isnt pleasant. It hurts.
Connected to this- We always ask for rain and flooding, but again, do we realize what happens? When you get caught in a flood, you lose control. You cant breath anything but water, you dont know where your going. Its going to bruise and beat you, and very possibly kill you. Aka, it hurts.
#3. Also related to the first. We call God things when we pray, like King and Lover. I realized just what these two specifically mean. The first is someone you follow, worship, and pay allegiance to. You kneel to them, and dont really have that much of a choice, because they are king whether you want them to be or not.
Lover, on the other hand can be something a lot closer. I realized that i wasn't worthy of saying i love him. I fail him, i give up hope in him, and lose faith in him. BUT, he can say he is my lover. He is faithful, always. He is consistent. And he actualy has hope in me and for me. The God who created the stars, the towering mountains, actualy hopes in me. | | |
| Whatever happened to objectivity? I have been looking at some stuff on evolution, and they are basically ridiculous with the amt of bias towards one or the other. I thought science was based on truth, more than opinion or religion? As for journalism.... not even going there. | | |
| I am really starting miss cbc here lately. The school, prof's, people, coffee shops, and town in general... Blah to you, russellville. | | |
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